Snails

There's a flight of stairs that connects Marikina to Ateneo de Manila.  I usually pass through there when I go to school, as I did today.  On approximately the twentieth step I found a big snail, the kind with a twirled shell, slimefully dragging itself and its load of a house across the ground.  I looked at it for a while, then went ahead.

Not more than five seconds later I heard a fairly loud crunch, and saw a high school student walking up the stairs, who passed me indifferently and continued on.  The snail was dead.

I'm not going to write about a mystical connection with the snail through metaphorizing the stairs or the slaughtering adolescent. 

Only that last night as I struggled to sleep I kept thinking how different I am in this place, and how different this place is, and I no longer know how to identify differences any more than I can gauge how far stars are.  

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  1. Helios Narcissus4 October 2013 at 15:33

    Be proud if your a highlander! long live Igorot bloods! >:DDD

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